Mind over matter is a phrase that we like to use when adversity comes our way. It is a psychological approach to crap hitting the fan, pain, denial and disappointment. I don’t mind so it doesn’t matter. Pain in life is inevitable but not all pain is avoidable or can be ignored. Too much pain requires a response which is to get numb. Ear piercing hurt, they numb you. Novocaine precedes surgery, anesthesiologists find nerves and knock them out so they can cut you. Offline so your brain cannot detect the signals of injury. We self medicate too:
Depression is the idle state of our emotions. We hit a general yet thorough numbness in response to too much pain. I am sure there is a more precise definition but that is how it looks and feels. I am not claiming to be depressed as a state of being but the pull of depression is constant.
But..is it a choice?
Do we choose to allow. Ourselves to sink into deeper levels of depression for longer periods of time? Is it a slow, gradual resignation? Do we have to power to claw and climb our way out or are we stuck?
I have felt depressed, which is to feel empty and helpless. As a Christian that should never be…right?
I’m obviously doing something wrong if I feel less than spring time fresh every second of everyday. God is in me so I should NEVER have a negative feeling in my mind, never feel as though I don’t need anything. I should be able to sit in my room with the Bible and that’s it. Just gobbling up scriptures like a addict. If I’m not face-splitting-smiling happy I am in sin. Period. I screwed up somewhere and I am now being punished for my weakness. Rainbows and butterflies and sunshine…….every, single, day.
Religion not only has people flying planes into buildings but it also has people to be made to feel condemned about being depressed. Religion has people strapping on bombs and annihilating themselves and as many people as possible but it also has a parent kick their kid out their home because of their sexual orientation. Religion has people fighting for years over a physical city but also has people believing that they can get rich by putting money in a bucket with no work ethic behind it.
Without faith it is impossible to please God. To please or to be pleasing is derived from pleasure. Pleasure is housed only in relationships with at least one living being. It means enjoyment and satisfaction of wants. Religion doesn’t please God therefore it is intolerant of the very thing that pleases God which is our will subjected to His. Religion wants no will, God wants it all.
What does this mean? Does it mean I can be pleasing g to God even when I don’t feel like it because I am lonely, tired, angry, depressed, unsatisfied.
We are allowed to be exactly who we are at any given moment in front of the Lord. That nature will change as we get it in with God but until then:
“Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!”
….wait that’s not Bible….that is part of the sonnet The New Colossus by Emma Lazarus engraved on the Statue of Liberty. Hmmmm liberty aka freedom from bondages…..
Ummm wait. I got it. Bible says that Jesus as a man was tempted at all points like we are. So we can come to God boldly since he is acquainted with our weaknesses. Sorry got a bit too regular there using real life examples. Can’t do that as a Christian 😑
The short of it (well not short anymore) is we cannot surprise God with anything good or bad. He actually gets it. That’s said we have work on our end namely utilizing His Grace. Choosing to meditate on the good things, choosing to do right because it’s pleasing, choosing to fight depression and anger and hate and bitterness and strife. Bible says as a man thinks I’m his heart so is he. We choose to be better because we are made to be better. All of us. And when we get beat down….yes it will happen and it will be brutal we have faith in God in each other. Stay strong and stay away from the high fructose corn syrup fake sugar that is religion and get you some organic tropical mango off the tree real sugar that is God. You. Will. Know. The. Difference.